I’m not quite sure how to say this.

I’ve lost my passion. My focus. My drive.

I’ve lost my energy. Gone.

I’ve lost my motivation to wake up.

I’ve lost my motivation to work hard.

I’ve lost it. Gone.

At least, that’s what I originally thought. The truth is, I completely overworked myself. I was so focused on my results and play counts that i wasn’t even getting an opportunity to pay attention to how I was feeling. All day, every day, I was trying to work harder than I did the previous. However, it was that exact drive to be successful that is holding me back from achieving my ambitions. It’s the burnout, The loss, The dying of a spark. Being honest, I don’t know how this will play out… All I know is that I have to take each day as it comes. I have to be grateful for every passing moment, and appreciate life as it is.

But like with every person in this industry, there’s been times where I almost gave up. I almost quit. I almost disappeared. But then in the back of my mind, there’s an ambition. I want to be the guy that changed things. I wanna make a difference. And that’s what kept me going…

In my opinion, being successful in the music industry is not totally dependant on whether you have 1 billion plays or whatever. “Stream counts” etc seem to just be another vanity metric to help inflate our ego. Instead, I believe success comes when you make a difference in somebody’s life.

Sure, it’s all good making a song and whacking it on Spotify for people to hear. But that song (probably) won’t change someone’s life. People these days are making music simply to get into certain Spotify playlists and whatever. But I guess it always comes down to economics :/

The defenition of success is “an accomplishment of an aim or purpose”. But what if we’re aiming our energy, time and resouces in the wrong direction? Music is universal: No matter what age, sex, religion you are, we can all find common ground in music. After all, it’s art. I think that we have some amazing technology to help change the world, and some brilliant creative minds. The question is, what is your purpose?

I write for people who want to live a happier life in the modern world. Let’s chat: Mattlillywhitemedium@gmail.com

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